Title: To See The
originally a zine story, over a year old
Well - not really. Except once you start with the Hershey's syrup? They're never
satisfied with flavored lube again.
Originally published in Whispers of the Heart 2 - has been modified for posting.
Jim has a date - who drools over Blair - and the winner will be? Well, like -
See The Light - part one
sat in the middle of his bed surrounded by books, legal pads and notes. But he
wasn't paying a bit of attention to any of it, preferring instead to contemplate
his favorite subject; Jim Ellison.
would say it was too late to contemplate such a subject - or too early, it being
after two in the morning, but Jim was on a date - meaning not home and that made
him ripe for contemplation. Especially since the *date* was a guy - a fellow
officer from the fifth precinct.
the guy had picked Jim up.
would that be worth mentioning? Because Jim was traditionally the picker-upper,
not the pickup-ee and rules were rules. Like Jim rule number thirty-five or
thirty-six; *Jim Ellison picks his dates *up*, they do *not* pick him up*.
meant that Jim had broken a rule.
did that make this guy special? Did breaking rule number thirty-five or
thirty-six make *this* guy, *the* guy? And if he was - what would that do to
talk about getting fucked over.
when he was absolutely honest with himself, like now, when he couldn't obfuscate
one more minute, like now - well, damn it, he'd fallen hard for the man. And
given Jim's preference for men, was it any wonder that Blair had thought giving
the detective a few hints, like extra touches and looks, would give the man a
clue as to how Blair felt?
Blair had never *actually* been with a guy before but damn, flirting was
flirting whether the person you were flirting *with* had bodacious bodegas or a
not, because Jim had missed the signals, the flirting - which meant either that
flirting with a dick *was* different than flirting with bodacious bodegas or -
Jim wasn't in the least bit interested in Blair Sandburg as a sexual feast.
Okay, cool. Blair had suspected all along that he wasn't Jim's type. He simply
wasn't - you know - *tall* enough.
man - Jim and his dates. Men or women, didn't matter, they were always tall and
depending on gender, sultry or hunky and all mysterious.
was none of the above. After all, how can one be *mysterious* if one never shuts
up? Kinda takes all the mystery away, you know? And
there was always the short thing. Yeah, he'd already said it, but it bore
repeating - too short.
and kind of squat and kind of - *out there* and kind of - weird.
had he mentioned short? Oh, he had? Good. He was.
started chewing on the ragged edge of his pencil, no longer contemplating Jim,
but rather the question of why Blair stayed. Here.
choice, given the amount of danger he'd found himself in over the last few years
- like bullets, bombs, falling elevators, terrorists and your basic general
crazy person with a grudge, was, well, obviously - masochist. Maybe it was time
to cut to the chase and just start sticking needles into his eyes - easier, you
was giving that thought serious consideration when he heard Jim's key in the
lock, soon followed by voices. Blair rose quickly and shot to the doors, bound
and determined to see this new date if it killed him.
reached for the door and swung it open.
ushered his date into the loft, both men laughing as they shrugged out of their
jackets. As the front door shut, the door to Blair's room opened, a crack of
light brightening the loft.
men turned to see a figure backlit, surrounded by a nimbus of gold, soft hair
brushing against a pale blue tee
shirt and light grey, soft combed sweat pants, *clinging* soft combed sweat
pants nicely outlining the male form. Two separate, soft inhalations escaped
from the two men who were frozen in place and one pair of pale blue eyes and one
pair of bright green eyes took in the apparition before them.
other man bolted past his date, shouldering him aside as he stuck out his right
looked up into jade green eyes and a handsome, hunky, smiling face, gave a brief
thought to wouldn't it be nice if just once Jim would date someone Blair could
look *down* to, then took the offered hand. "Good to meet you, Sam. And yeah, I'm Blair."
growing roots and still recovering from the electric charge his libido had sent
to his groin at seeing Blair in the doorway, found himself suddenly angry.
*his* date just pushed him aside for *his* roommate?
lifted his chin and waded into the fray.
this is my roommate and partner, Blair Sandburg. Blair, this is Sam Murphy, my
one missed the emphasis on *date*. Blair's eyes flicked up to Jim's as Sam,
still holding his hand, said, "Gee, Jim, we've met."
oblivious to the aroused libidos swirling around him, said his good-nights
claiming early class in the morning and nodding his *good to meet you* nod
before turning back to his room and giving the two men an excellent view of the
*rear* of those soft combed sweat pants.
more, barely there, inhalations followed the closing of the french doors.
tore his eyes from the doors and faced his date and remarked sarcastically,
"So, that was your roommate?" And with a bit more sarcasm, added,
"The science *geek*?"
had the grace to blush. "Well, yeah, yeah, that's him."
huh. They weren't making science geeks like that when *I* was in school, Jim,
old buddy. And if they had, lab would have taken on a whole new meaning."
well - he's *different*."
um, yes, good choice of an adjective."
turned toward the front door and scratched the back of his head.
know, Jim, maybe staying over isn't such a good idea after all.
I'll just head home."
way, Sam. You left your car at the Ramrod for a reason, remember?
just crash on the couch, okay?"
face brightened. "You talked me into it, Jimbo." Not to mention,
thought the homicide detective, that staying over would give him an opportunity
to get another glimpse of the geek.
loft was dark, everyone in bed. Sam turned on his side, settled deeper into the
surprisingly cushy couch and thought about Jim Ellison.
only had two dates so far, mostly because both men were leery of dating within
the police department, and Sam had found Jim to be witty as well as a good
conversationalist. *But* he was also a bit
too - straight laced?
liked adventure, spontaneity and kink. Hell, *tie me up, tie me down* was his
favorite saying. To anyone who would listen. But Jim was more like Dudley
Do-Right. And definitely non-kinky.
He should never have thought of tying anyone up - or down because right now, on
Jim's couch, in Jim's living-room, while using Jim's blanket, sheets and
pillows, he was having a fantasy that *didn't* involve Jim.
instead, he was visualizing that sweet confection of perfect assdom, one Blair
Sandburg, science geek supreme, spread-eagled on Sam's king size four poster,
silk scarves wound lushly around ankles and wrists while Sam sent the gorgeous,
willing, wiggling, writhing man into orbit.
man, this was *not* right. But it *was* only a fantasy. Harmless.
Completely. But damn, how he wanted to make it a reality. And would that
really be so wrong? Dating your date's roommate? Nah, clearly Jim wasn't
interested in his roommate and what the hell was wrong with the guy, anyway?
Jeesh, deaf, dumb *and* blind?
flipped himself over, pounded the pillow and sighed deeply as he went back to
his - harmless fantasy...
Sam, Jim shifted restlessly. Sleep was proving to be elusive thanks to his mind
which was focused on Sam who was lying on his couch, using his pillows, sheets
and blanket and probably dreaming about *his* Sandburg.
date, sleeping a few feet from his roommate - dreaming highly erotic dreams
about said roommate and Jim was up here - doing the exact same thing.
this was a mess. And damn, that Sam. Clearly and understandably infatuated with
the things Jim Ellison could get himself into - and not - like his roommate. And
what, Sam couldn't tell that Blair was straight? His gaydar off or something?
rolled over, pounded his pillow fiercely and tried once again to sleep. But
damn, visions of Blair, up here, in his bed. Tied. To. His.
To the railing...with Jim's best silk ties.
wondered if he still had that long feather...
in the small bedroom, Blair slept the sleep of the innocent.
in the morning. Shit, he needed to get up, get ready, class in two hours. Blair
swung his legs over the edge of the bed and stood, scratched, yawned, then
slipped out of his room and padded to the bathroom utilizing his best sentinel
stealth mode. One shower and one quick breakfast and maybe he could face the
was completely unaware of the man sleeping a few feet away. Or that his
movements had awakened him.
rolled over and nearly off the couch before catching himself.
Something had disturbed his sleep. Footsteps, a door opening, a quickly
extinguished light...Sam pulled himself up and peeked over the edge of the couch
- just out of the shower, the *geek* in only a towel, a *small* towel, wrapped
around inviting hips. God, that hair, damp and trailing down his back...
bit back a very loud groan.
this was totally unfair. Morning erection and its unfailing compass-like ability
to find exactly what it needed - and there, the geek.
gorgeous, Greek geek.
was more temptation than *any* red-blooded all American male could possibly
ignore. And Sam Murphy was American, all male, very human and very agile. In a
flash, he was bounding over the top of the couch before anyone could say,
"Tie Blair up, tie Blair down."
morning, Blair," he said cheerily.
man in question jumped three feet into the air, but unfortunately for Sam, the
towel remained steadfastly in place.
The Greek geek exclaimed. Sam nodded. Yep, his thoughts exactly.
Blair. Did I startle you?" Innocence personified. That was Sam Murphy.
blinked up at the man in front of him and then his eyes flew immediately to the
offered me the couch last night. Had a bit too much Tequila. Not that it *was*
the Tequila, mind you, no it t'wer the limes."
couldn't help it - he laughed. "I can sympathize," he was finally able
to say. "With me, it's the salt."
Blair smiled. At Sam.
God - quick, please, someone get me sunglasses and SPF 45. Sam was blinded.
wouldn't let you drive, would he?"
Blair said with a knowing smile, "That's him."
smiles and Sam found himself fixated on the most delectable pair of lips he'd
ever seen on a man, Mick Jagger notwithstanding. He found himself wondering what
that mouth would taste like and - feel like...he moved closer.
wondered what the hell Sam was looking at - toothpaste on his chin? And why so -
intense? He started to back up until he came up against the kitchen counter. Sam
was only about two feet from Blair when he spoke again.
conscious that he was only wearing a towel and that Sam was in Jockeys, small,
tight fitting purple Jockeys, Blair mumbled, "Awhile."
was only inches away now, green eyes honing in on that mouth...
huh," Blair was staring at Sam's mouth, "awhile."
He watched Sam lick his bottom lip, like maybe Blair was an omelet with a
rasher of bacon on the side?
nodded. "Right. Awhile."
nodded again and Sam swooped down and brought his lips to Blair's and Blair
couldn't believe it. This *guy* was kissing him and this guy was *Jim's* guy and
while the kiss was nice because Blair *had* wondered what it would be like to
kiss a guy because of course, he desperately wanted to kiss Jim, it *wasn't* Jim
but it gave him a good idea of what he'd never have, but still - he didn't kiss
back because this guy was not his guy, was not Jim.
Sam - he'd found his Holy Grail. The mouth under his was incredible.
hot and fucking sweet.
He *had* to remove the towel because just feeling that hot ass under the thin,
soft terrycloth --- he *had* to remove the towel. His right hand, with a surprising mind of its own,
considering what his tongue was doing and how much pleasure it was experiencing,
went for the towel.
Blair's hand was there, gripping the terrycloth like there was no tomorrow...
go to Plan B. Tongue - deeper.
young Greek geek groaned and Sam's compass went *boing* but the damn towel
Plan C - the other hand winding deeply in damp, silky curls, pulling back,
tongue delving deeper still and yes, the Greek geek's hand was relaxing...
minute now and that towel would be history...
was still enjoying the kiss, but still - it wasn't Jim. Never going to *be* Jim.
But this man wanted him. He wasn't too short for *this* man, or too talkative,
or too bouncy or too geekish for this man.
fingers started to release their grip on the towel...but then his voice,
stronger than Blair Junior who was deep into doing the Mowambe Tribe Ritual
Fertility Happy Dance, yelled, "This is Jim's guy!
Jim's guy, this guy is Jim's guy. You're nobody's guy!"
Junior went limp and Blair's left hand, which had been gripping Sam's right
bicep, dropped to Sam's chest and gave a little shove while at the same time, he
moaned *no* into Sam's mouth.
word reached Sam's fevered brain. Damn. Fuck. The Greek geek had
said *no*. And Sam *was* a boyscout, something he'd be loath to
Okay, he was the kinky boyscout your mother had warned you
he *was* a boyscout. Hating himself, he pulled away from that mouth. And the
movement was actually painful. He'd never enjoyed a kiss so much...
looked down into dusky blue eyes, saw more than he wanted to see and
reluctantly, stepped away. At that exact same moment...
whirled to find a very angry Jim on the stairs, hands on hips, no, *fists* on
hips, face purple with rage. Then Sam heard the anguished whisper of the young
man behind him...
was not dead. And Sam was one chivalrous guy. Especially since he could clearly
spot the jealousy in Jim Ellison, a jealousy directed at *him*.
Ellison was jealous of Sam. Not Blair, *Sam*. Which certainly explained what Sam
had seen and heard in Blair's eyes and voice.
damn, this was good news. After all, who wanted to think that one of Cascade's
finest could be as stupid as Jim, up to now, had appeared?
God for Thomas Alva Edison. Sam would have hated the idea of Jim Ellison
spending eternity in the dark. But now that all lights were on, it was time to
rescue the situation.
it's not what you think. *I* kissed Blair. He didn't kiss me back and he didn't
have a choice. He said no."
purple face darkened, then went splotchy and Sam was almost certain he could see
steam swirling from Jim's ears. Sam quickly moved into the living room, to
intercept, just in case, and naturally, Blair followed.
stalked the rest of the way down, every muscle tense, teeth grinding, jaw
clenching, and eyes twitching in tune with the vein at his temple.
Maim, then kill. Kill man who took from his mate.
Jim really liked this whole primal thing. Made him feel really good. Not as good
as punching out his ex-date for kissing his current, forever roommate and his
future bedtoy, but good.
yeah, kill the interloper.
a little slow on the uptake, frowned. Why had Sam said all of that? And damn if
Jim didn't look as though he were going to kill Sam.
up, Blair. This is between me and him. He tried to take what's mine."
and *me*. It's *him and me*."
eyes narrowed dangerously, then cleared. "Right, Chief. This is between him
stared open-mouthed. These two were so far out of bounds - it was illegal. And
God, so in love.
Ellison, Detective of the year? Rigged. Sam had always known the damn thing was
Sam and Jim glared - Blair had an epiphany.
tried to take what's mine*
needed to decide if he should be angry or not, after all, here he was, standing
in the living room, wearing only a towel and Jim was claiming him.
two alpha males were about to fight over him. Blair took a good look at his
psyche and found it and his masculinity intact.
Jim loved him. Unless Jim meant the towel. After all, the towel was his and Sam
had definitely been mounting a campaign to get it off.
alpha males, his ass. Two pathetic beta males at the most. After all, *he* was
the alpha male around here, albeit in disguise as a short, Jewish geek.
pondered the question of what a beta male would do in such a situation, because
after all, Sam was really a good guy. Deluded, but good.
alpha male in disguise stepped in front of the endangered beta male masquerading
as an alpha male.
Jim. Relax. Sam kissed me. I didn't kiss back but he didn't take either. When I
finally said no, he backed off. That's when you came downstairs. See?"
forward motion was arrested. He gazed down at his mate.
Jim. I said no and he stopped. Now why don't we all sit down and have some
glanced from one man to the other, then snuck a quick glance at
The big cop was smiling at him, his expression saying that he
exactly what Blair was doing. Blair grinned back wickedly
Sam made the mistake of winking back. A mistake because of course, Jim caught
it. And pounced.
Blair was still between the two men and had turned back to Jim just as the man
was doing his panther thingy.
hit Blair, full body contact and both went down with a thud, Blair on the
bottom, his head hitting the floor twice.
was floating and it felt good. Soft and cushy. Kind of like what he'd always
imagined Jim's bed would feel like. So instead of waking up right away -
Sandburg pretended he *was* in Jim's bed, tied up, and Jim had this big
dream dissipated and he was left - on the couch. No silk ties, no feather. Fuck.
um - pounced."
blinked rapidly at the face swimming above him. "You did? And I missed it?
Well, damn. I've been fantasizing about you pouncing on me, like, ever since
Peru. Was it good? Did I like it?"
Blair had gone over the edge. All his fault too. Hospital. He needed to get
Blair to a hospital.
you're delirious, I'm calling the medics."
why do you always say *medics*? I mean, you're not in the military anymore, you
Blair, you're delirious and I'm calling the *paramedics*.
He glanced down and found that he was still wearing the damn towel but an
accessory had been added, namely a washcloth across his forehead. Looking back
at Jim, he asked, "Where's Sam?"
voted for a safe retreat after I assured him that you were fine. And
in case you missed it, the guy has a serious boner for you, Chief."
sweet nothings. And from my cuddly little alpha male too. And isn't it lucky I
have boners only for you?"
glanced down and grinned. A tug at his shirt brought his attention back to
Blair, who was talking.
since I missed the first pounce - could I have an instant replay?"
the last pounce put you out for five minutes."
you stud, you. Let's go for six."
not incorruptible. Corrupt me."
smiled and traced a finger down Blair's jaw. "Mind telling me when Mr.
Straighter Than Arrow Sandburg decided he liked men?"
my arrow has never been choosy." One of Jim's eyebrows rose so Blair
hastily added, "Okay, my arrow never actually pointed to a guy before,
so?" Then Blair waggled his eyebrows and added huskily, "Wanna play
with my arrow and sheath?"
groaned and shifted on the edge of the couch. This was too much, too soon and
too fast. Hell, Blair had been straight an hour ago and everyone knew that Jim
had never been very good at switching gears.
could see the indecision in Jim's eyes and he was damn tired of word games. It
was time for some tongue and cheek games. He reached up, fisted Jim's shirt and
brought him down for a kiss. A hard, brutal, searing kiss.
the right guy could make all the difference in this kissing of men thing.
kiss escalated and moments later, both men ended on the floor with Blair perched
on top of Jim, their tongues still swimming together, completely undisturbed by
the sudden shift in locale.
tongue was doing such a fine job on Jim's teeth that he
was already planning how to spend the money he'd save on dentists bills.
finally parted and gasping for breath, Blair wheezed out, "Let's fuck,
barely focused Ellison blinked.
Wait, he was just getting into this kissing thing with Blair and already
the guy wanted to move to fucking?
he was adaptable, hadn't he been in the service? Change, adapt, stealth,
explore, and covert entry.
the other hand, this was Sandburg, not some military objective - exactly. Well,
kind of, but he'd never *tell* Sandburg that, exactly. So
fuck yes, but on the floor? No way. He dug his face into Blair's neck and
mumbled against moist, warm skin, "upstairs."
later, he was up and pulling at Blair and they were moving, laughing, touching,
climbing the stairs, stealing quick kisses on step three, step seven, step
step ten, after hot and hungry kiss, Jim went primal again and simply grabbed
Blair's arm, bent slightly, his shoulder hitting Sandburg's chest and then
straightened, Blair was now slung over his shoulder. Faster this way, much faster. He ran up the last half of the
steps, Blair laughing and bouncing, his hands clutching Jim's ass.
and puffing, Jim dropped his prize onto the bed. Whew, Blair might be shorter
but he was one heavy, muscular bedtoy, and no, Jim would *never* say *bedtoy* to
Blair's face, although Jim would be more than happy to be Blair's bedtoy.
he gazed down at Sandburg, Jim arched his eyebrows in an attempt to look
lecherous. In reality, he was trying to buy time, catch his breath and catch his
lay where dropped, looking all the world like he'd already been debauched, sexy
as hell and damn if he wasn't looking up at Jim like some kind of predatory
animal...and there went that tongue, licking slowly over Blair's bottom lip...
watched Jim watching him and his eyes gleamed wickedly as his grin widened.
Without an ounce of self-consciousness, he spread his legs, reached out and
snagged the waistband of Jim's boxers, then pulled.
get this show on the road."
unless I'm very wrong, you've never been down this exact road before. You don't
just jump into the car and go."
gave another tug and Jim landed on him. Blair nibbled an earlobe while his right
hand stroked the silky hardness of Jim's cock. Giving the reddened ear a quick
lick, he whispered, "i do. i always just - go. who do you think you're
talking to here, eh?" He gave impetus to his words by thrusting his hips up
and wrapping his legs around Jim.
god, blair...no fair..."
took Jim's hand and brought it around and under him, to land on his ass. "I
don't believe in playing fair, Jim. Now I *know* you have what we need nearby -
Mr. Jim *Boyscout* Ellison, so grab it and get behind the freaking wheel,
rose up, balancing his body on his elbows and frowned down at his partner.
"How do you know you'll like this? Maybe you'd like to go first? I mean,
what makes you think you want to be the bottom first time out?"
lifted his head as his eyebrows shot to the ceiling. "You want me to
analyze *now*? Get real, Jim. The whole who tops, who bottoms thing is ages old.
You want me to figure out here and now why I want to bottom?"
yeah. Being penetrated for a guy, well, that's different, you know?"
licked a path up Jim's cheek and ended with a kiss to both his eyes. "Maybe
for some men, Jim, but not for me." He shrugged, smiled and gave Jim a
quick kiss, then added, "Who knows, maybe I'm a natural."
stared at Sandburg, at the flushed face and body, and he was acutely aware of
the heat radiating from the younger man, the want and need being expressed in
every way, consciously and unconsciously. But Jim was still worried.
could hurt you, Blair. I could, could lose control."
don't need control with me, Jim. Just - do - it."
need control with Blair? God, it was true, he never had. Blair was his safety
net. But...this meant surrendering control to someone else and Jim had never
surrendered to anyone in his life - except Blair.
recognizing the surrender, grinned and lifted himself higher to plant his lips
kissed long, deep and urgently. As Jim reluctantly pulled away, he was already
reaching out to the nightstand, for the condoms and a bottle of hand lotion,
some natural aloe and vitamin E stuff that Blair had recommended, Truth be told,
he wasn't quite as *supplied* as Blair had supposed. And he'd *never* been a boy
the items were dropped onto the pillow, he whispered, "love you, blair,
hands ghosted across soft, downy haired arms, so unlike his own, then smoothed
over Blair's chest, exhilarated by the hair he'd been dreaming about for years.
Now he was free to rub, to enjoy, to lick at the nipples, watch the wet whorls
of hair, watch as Blair arched back at his touch, eyes clenched shut...
senses thrilled at the combination of silky and wiry mixed together and God,
there was so much for a sentinel to enjoy, so much to experience..
sucked in one rigid nipple and let his tongue tease and nip. Blair
jerked up so hard that he nearly bucked Jim off, but Ellison held on and moved
down, his tongue licking and tasting while occasionally peppering the heated
skin with small kisses.
tried to remember all that had happened his first time with a man, because that
was his only frame of reference. Since *his* first time, he'd never been with a
virgin, male or female. He knew he needed to relax Blair, excite him, but God,
he didn't want to hurt him, or turn him off...
course, the man below him didn't seem tense and he certainly appeared excited
and as for turned off? Blair Sandburg? Not in this lifetime. Hell, the man was already writhing under him, begging him
with his eyes, his moans and his hands. Blair trusted him and Blair would take
care of this, take care of *him*.
scooted lower and took Blair's cock into his mouth. He sucked and allowed his
teeth to gently graze the skin which caused Blair to buck hard. The younger
man's hands gripped at Jim's short hair, at his ears and held tightly as his
hips began a steady thrusting.
Jim could *feel* Blair's moans through his dick, reverberating against the
inside of his mouth, shooting all the way up to his brain.
fondled Sandburg's balls, juggled them gently, squeezed a bit and deep throated
Blair's dick at the same time.
yell shocked Jim as the sound jumped through the top of his head. Seconds later,
Blair came in hot spurts and Jim had to work to keep up and swallow, but finally
Blair's head lolled back as his body spasmed one final time.
crawled up the lax body and noted with a satisfied smile that Blair's eyes were
closed, his face and body covered with sweat. He noticed one trail of moisture
as it traveled down from Blair's temple and he quickly and joyously lapped it up
then kissed Blair again.
time the kiss was gentle and loving as if two souls were being exchanged, vows
given and mixing with their breaths. When the kiss ended, Jim urged Blair over
on his stomach.
relaxed body flopped over and grinning, Jim quickly prepared himself, then
blanketed Blair with his body and nuzzled at Sandburg's neck, pushing
sweat-dampened hair aside. Jim wasn't surprised that it only took a few minutes
to bring Blair back to an edgy, writhing state.
reached under Blair's body and stroked the hardening cock even as he kissed his
way down Blair's back.
strokes, shared kisses, stretching, soothing and Blair was ready.
lifted the younger man's hips and felt Blair's help as he prepared to enter him.
you, Chief, love you...."
seemed to come together then as he pushed and Blair responded and urged, as
Jim's thumbs soothed circles over soft flesh and he was there, he was inside and
they were moving and Jim surrounded Blair, buried himself in Blairhair, kissed
and moved slowly, in and out, then picking up speed as Blair humped back over
and over again...
Blair took over.
rising and falling, back jerking into Jim, meeting Jim's body with his own,
forcing Jim as deeply inside as possible, the friction of their movement, of his
cock against the bedding and Blair *had* to pick up the pace as he whispered,
"let go, jim, let go...."
let go. Jim *could* let go. For the first time in years...
lost himself in Blair, inside his mind, his body, his voice and Jim could hear
blood rushing, felt Blair's heart beating, thundering inside his brain, lodging
there for all time, keeping him alive, his life marching to that cadence and no
pounded against each other, Blair's moans mixing with Jim's, but it had to end
and never end.
rested his head on Blair's chest, the hair caressing his cheek. He
was wonderfully, gloriously spent. Blair's breathing had finally slowed as his
arms wrapped around Jim.
letting you go, jim. never."
don't," he mumbled back.
we going to work?"
i'm sick, you?"
as a dog. you call."
nodded but made no move. Later, he'd call later.
think we should send sam on sort of cruise."
raised his head and looked at Blair with raised eyebrows.
responsible, man. we should reward him."
saw the light for the second time in twenty-four hours.
a cruise. far, far away."
were both silent, Jim contemplating Sam's prolonged absence via a surprise
cruise, Blair contemplating fantasies.
how many silk ties to you have? and where's the feather duster?"
found life returning to his old bones - and other parts. He jumped up and ran to